revelations...

i think that i've just had a revelation.... i dunno tho. here i am, angel flores, training to be a firefighter. but i realized, that in my training, i've never felt better.

i've almost completely stopped partying, stopped drinking, stopped everything bad for me. i've been maxing myself out every time i work out, repping myself out every time, and at the same time, feeling great. i mean, sure, going to work and not being able to hold a pizza is annoying, but i feel proud of myself for some reason. i no longer look in the mirror and wonder what i'm doing to myself. i know now what it is. i no longer see a useless bum staring back at me. i see someone with potential, and i'm starting to uncover it. granted, i haven't even come close to uncovering it, but i'm getting there, and what's great is that i have people backing me up.

my friends, i dont' know what i'd do without them. they are behind me 100% of the way. i mean, everytime i want to go work out, they're right there. my father, he's a firefighter already, and in peak physical condition. he even gave me his blessings, and said that if it is something that i wanted to pursue, that he'd help me all of the way. the support is overwhelming. i just hope i can keep it up. i know that i've promised myself alot, but this is one promise i really really want to keep.

i realized that through training to be a firefighter, i am doing something healthy for myself. i am bringing my body up to where it should be. and i know that being a firefighter is something i really want to be. i mean, it's pretty much my calling. i get to save lives, be adventerous, and have variety. it's the perfect job for me...

i just hope i can make it...

later days,
-tr4g3